Appreciation

May 12th 2014 to May 18th 2104

 

To be honest I cant be bothered really writing much within these last two weeks. I have had so many miracles these past couple of weeks that I have the best weeks. Even though we have appointments that fall through and times where its a little discouraging; knowing that the Lord picks us up and helps us through it all is the most amazing thing that we can count on. He promises us that he will be there for us. John 14.18. He will comfort us, He will never leave us. It is the most amazing blessing. Last week I really had a scripture really hit me hard. It just, hit me so deep in my personal study that I began to cry. I don't understand where all the tears come from seriously I like never cry but seriously the mission is changing me and for the better. I am learning how to be compassionate and to really rely on the words in the scriptures and apply it to my own life and I have tried to. As I have done so, I have started to change and for the better. The scripture was found in Doctrine and Covenants 31:2-3,6 i think it was. I applied these scriptures to myself and An overwhelming feeling came upon me. The spirit has been working its ways lately and I know that I know this church is true! My testimony is so firm that no matter what happens in life and if I ever departed from the ways now, which i hope to never, but if I did, I KNOW I will never deny the church. Its a bold claim but that is the truth. I know without a doubt this church is true. My love for my Heavenly Father and Saviour Jesus Christ changed for me this week. It changed during my mission for a deeper love. But this week it just deepened so much that I know my heavenly father love me and why the things happen to me that they do. I cannot describe the feelings that I have with knowing that I have found the true gospel of Jesus Christ and that it is here for everyone! I am no longer in that state of confusion and I'm so glad. This gospel is for everyone. It really is. No matter if you're catholic or you're Muslim or whatever; it is there for everyone and we as missionaries invite everyone to come to find out for themselves the truthfulness of it. If it doesn't change your life then that's okay, because then your life isn't any different than what it was before. But what if it does. What if it changes your life in ways that you couldn't have imagined before? I love this gospel and I don't know where I would be without it. I cant even remember my life before the gospel. Everyone wants stories and I don't really have any. I just remember the feelings I had before I was baptised and when I was taking lessons from the missionaries 3years ago. They were of indescribable feelings but I know that no matter what trial comes my way, I am still happy. I have a lasting happiness and that is what I want to share with everyone and help them understand that they too can be happy. How would it make you feel to know that you go through these trials and still see the light at the end of the tunnel. To still be happy through them. That's why people think I'm weird because I have optimism because I see that light at the end of the tunnel. I know that no matter what happens in my journey in life that the greatest reward is in the next life which is why I am always happy. I received an email today and one of my grandfathers had passed away on my moms side. I cried and still want to cry because that is my family. My family is all together at this time whilst I am on my mission and cant be there at this time. And then my dog also passed away the next day after my grandfather did. I am so exhausted now because of all the tears but my first thought that came to my mind was, "Families can be together forever" and how grateful I am to have that knowledge. I know that I will see my grandfather again without a shadow of a doubt. And i know the Lord provides a way with everything and I am so grateful to know that my mom, who hasn't had the money to come back to New Zealand in the last 10years, is able to be here with her family at this time. Amazing how the Lord provides because she is now in New Zealand at this time. I love my Heavenly Father beyond words can describe. How lucky I am to grow closer to Him and to really know Him and what plans He has in store for us. If only everybody knew how lucky they truly are.