IM SO SCARED!!!!!

May 26th 2014 to June 1st 2014

I AM SO SCARED!!!!!! So I cannot believe that I have been out for almost 3months and each 6weeks is a transfer and I would then call it a milestone!!!!! So I have come to the end of my second transfer and I am so SAD! I so not want this transfer to end... I want it to last forever! So this week is the big news week. I have a chance on leaving the beautiful area of Chapel Downs Ward In Auckland City! I DO NOT want to leave but there is a chance that I could be. I have been dreading this for the last couple of weeks now but I know that if I leave then its my time to leave. BUT I hope I don't leave. I do have a testimony that my Heavenly Father knows best. So heres hoping when tomorrow night when we get the calls of transfers that President says that I get to stay. Lately I have been like, okay I think Im going and then the next I will think that I am staying. Last night, I even had a dream that I was being transferred... THIS is ho wmuch it has bothered me but the dream said I was being transferred to Japan so who knows what is happening! I wont be getting transferred to Japan but I may be transferred to somewhere else.

I don't know how I deserved such a great start to the mission to be honest. I LOVE my companion and I don't know if we will have much more time together. Im sad about that because I love her so much but I know eventually the time is going to come. We have seriously been so blessed this transfer. We met Tessa and she is going to be baptised and married next transfer on July 4th and 5th and so that's one reason I want to be here for ONE more transfer. That is all Im asking for. And Keala we met this week and I love her so much! The Lord really does have people prepared to share the gospel with and that are redy to accept. Tessa and Keala are those two that were prepared. Keala is from Brisbane Australia and is staying with her grandfather and she want sto be baptised now. We ave met with her twice now and shes ready but she is going to wait for her family to fly back from Australia to come to her baptism. If I have the chance to witness her being baptised, then I will be over the moon because then when I go home from my mission eventually then I will be always able to hang out with her and help keep her on the path if there were ever any times of trouble because she is my recent convert! ahh like the sound of that. But really I am only an instrument in the Lords hand. I am His servant and here to do His work. I just don't know what Sister Davis and I done to deserve such blessings! If I have the privilege of being here for 1more transfer I will cry because next transfer is going to be AMAZING! It was a little bit of a sad morning today because elders napier and triffitt got the news that they are both being transferred this morning and its so sad. So argh transfers are pooooo. They really are but Im just so nervous for what this week is going to entail. 3baptisms and a wedding on the horizon for next transfer and Tessa is just amazing. She said she will cry when we leave and im like I will be too! I really have been a sook lately. I love my mission and I never want it to end. I love my family and friends for helping me to get her and if they hadn't, I wouldn't be the person I am today. I don't know where I would be and who I would be.

This is most likely my last transfer I will have with Sister Davis and this is the drawing that my recent convert Tamia drew for us one day. I hope I get to stay here!!!!! Amazing transfer in this ward coming up!!!!!! 3months down and 15months to go and time is going way too fast!

Love,

Sister McFlinn